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    Thursday, September 29th, 2005
    1:09 am
    My Bio
    I redid my bio on my profile page. I'm thinking of writing a short story going into more detail:

    Bio: I was born in the ocean. My mother is an octapus and my father is a seahorse. I guess that would make me a pus-sea? Anyways, when I was 8 I moved to Pluto with my cousin, Bula. That idiot got us kicked off the planet for drug trafficking. At 16 I formed my own village on the outskirts of Golania, Brazil. I was the queen of Oblinquintia, which I named after my childhood pet. I was forced to move to United States at 20 after the unfortunate capturing of my village people, coordinated by King Pinabudda of Mercury. That asshole has been trying to get back at me since I called him a pudgy peanut at the the annual Royal Meeting of Eclectic Rulers of the Universe (RMERU). Just put a top hat on the bastard and he looks identical to Mr. Peanut. There was a rumor going around that Mr. Peanut is Pinabudda's biological father. I wouldn't doubt it. I met Mr. Peanut once and he is a very nasty soul, just as I suspected. Who else would procreate like a maniac and sell his own offspring for profit? And he appears to enjoy doing this. All of that smiling and dancing around he does. Anyways, I'm 22 now and live in an invisible cave in an undisclosed location in the state of Alabama. I am on many of the Ruler's bad lists right now so I am required to stay in hiding for the time being.

    Current Mood: creative
    Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
    1:06 pm
    Check this out!

    Check this out!  It's really funny.  It gave me a lot of laughs!



    Current Mood: giddy
    Tuesday, September 20th, 2005
    7:41 pm
    Your Band Name is:

    The Supersized Tulips
    6:39 pm
    theFutureMinders.com
    Veraxs Int'l Inc.
    3355 Bee Cave Road Suite 404
    Austin, TX 78746 USA
    Phone: 512-826-5401
    *** Introduction ***

    This Astrological Child Report has been designed as a guide
    for Edmundson's parents, with a special commitment: to help with
    Edmundson's growth and cultural upbringing, to emphasize and
    strengthen her assets, and to alert the parents to mistakes or
    possible problems that Edmundson could face in her life.

    Chapter 1 describes Edmundson the way she really is
    (position of the Sun), and the way her personality is expressed
    (Ascendant sign). Chapters 2 and 3 describe the influences
    linked to her mother and father respectively, which DOES NOT
    mean a description of their personalities, but the way Edmundson
    sees them, experiences them, and which characteristics she takes
    from each one. In the astrological chart of a brother or sister,
    the description of parents could be different due to the
    individual's perspective. Chapter 4 completes the sequence of
    the description of Edmundson's temperament, focusing her mind,
    her attitude toward education, and her intellectual capacity.

    Chapter 5 describes Edmundson's destiny, her vocation, her
    profession, and the probability of success in the material
    world. In order to get an appropriate view of Edmundson's
    vocational possibilities, it will be necessary to combine what
    is in this chapter plus what is in Chapter 1 andany other
    relevant information in the report.

    Chapter 6 analyzes the conditions of Edmundson's health;
    some tendencies or possibilities to physical diseases are
    mentioned, which DOES NOT mean that Edmundson is going to suffer
    from them, one by one. It does mean that those are her weak
    points and she is inclined to those possibilities. As a
    complement, some recommendations for Edmundson to have better
    nutrition are mentioned. PLEASE CONSULT A PHYSICIAN REGARDING
    ANY PHYSICAL PROBLEMS THAT YOUR CHILD MAY HAVE!!! FOLLOW YOUR
    PHYSICIAN'S ADVICE AND ANY MEDICATION OR THERAPY THAT HE/SHE
    RECOMMENDS!!! ASTROLOGY SHOULD NEVER BE USED AS A SUBSTITUTE FOR
    PROFESSIONAL MEDICAL ATTENTION!!!

    Finally, Chapter 7 describes the astrological influence of
    the outer planets which affect all the children who were born in
    the same period of years, producing common ideas and behaviors
    and subsequent generational characteristics.

    It is probable that you may find some contradictions in the
    report; this is because some planets may be beneficial in a
    certain area of life while other planets may be less helpful or
    even harmful. This means that Edmundson may have both positive
    and negative experiences in the same area. You need to draw on
    your intuition and common sense to come to your own conclusions.
    But remember that every child, no matter the sign he/she was
    born in, needs LOVE in order to grow up in the right way.


    *** Astrological Data ***

    For the benefit of students of astrology, the positions of the
    planets at the time of birth and other technical information is
    given below:

    Sun 0 Can 11 Neptune 27 Sag 48
    Moon 23 Sco 41 Pluto 26 Lib 46
    Mercury 11 Gem 39 Asc. 2 Pis 11
    Venus 15 Leo 26 MC 13 Sag 06
    Mars 25 Gem 10 2nd cusp 15 Ari 48
    Jupiter 3 Sag 04 3rd cusp 18 Tau 17
    Saturn 27 Lib 48 5th cusp 5 Can 25
    Uranus 6 Sag 09 6th cusp 29 Can 40

    Tropical Placidus Summer Saving Time observed
    GMT: 03:57:00 Time Zone: 5 hours West
    Lat. and Long. of birth place: 34 N 40 77 W 21

    Aspects and orbs:
    Conjunction : 7 Deg 00 Min
    Opposition : 6 Deg 00 Min
    Square : 6 Deg 00 Min
    Trine : 6 Deg 00 Min
    Sextile : 4 Deg 00 Min
    *** Chapter 1 ***
    General description of the child: essential nature and
    personality. Physical body and childhood.

    Sun in Cancer:

    The Cancer child is very sensitive and moody. She can laugh
    and cry many times during the same day. Edmundson is very
    perceptive and is fascinated by the world around her, always
    trying to discover new things. She is attracted to all the
    colorful images she sees and these images will stay in her mind
    forever. This child is delicate, gets scared pretty easily, and
    will probably need a light on at night. Her emotional world is
    vast and she has a great need to give and receive love. At a
    young age she takes on the role of protector and she usually has
    pets. She loves to feed them and takes care of them with great
    dedication and delicacy. Children of Cancer are very good
    doctors and nurses.

    The main influence for Edmundson is the home, and she has a
    special relationship with her mother. She may depend on her
    parents and brothers or sisters longer than other children
    might. She can be very shy and sometimes she does not like to be
    around people. You do not have to force her or compel her to do
    something. She has a delicate sensitivity and will always
    remember any bad treatment she has received, which could cause
    problems or traumas in the future. She is very aware of what is
    going on around her, so it is very important not to quarrel when
    she is there, or she could feel guilty about it. Though she is
    docile, quiet and tender emotionally, it is not easy for her to
    follow other peoples' rules. She is very individualistic and
    independent in her way of thinking. Edmundson usually gets what
    she wants and sometimes she is a sort of spoiled child. But if
    she does not receive the love and tenderness she needs, she
    could become a rude and lonely person.

    She has a bright imagination and it is very probable that
    she will meet friends of the same kind to play with. She also
    shows some tendencies towards the arts and creativity in
    general, especially music. Teachers might complain about her
    stubbornness or that she is a day-dreamer. Usually when Cancer
    children get hurt, they keep quiet instead of letting everybody
    know what happened.

    Edmundson gathers strength from nature. She would be very
    happy sowing seeds and watching them grow. She is usually in a
    good mood and communicates her joy to others. You do not have to
    worry about her bad moods; they will disappear quickly. She
    keeps all the things she loves. Even as a grown-up she will
    still have her toys. This is true also with the things of her
    heart, including her family, her friends, the neighborhood, the
    city, etc. She loves to collect things and she is very fond of
    history. No matter where she lives, she will always keep her
    memories very fresh. That is why her parents should keep her
    things, her books, even her own room the same after she leaves
    home. Only when she feels emotionally complete will she show her
    authority naturally and become a leader. Girls of Cancer could
    have a stronger personality than boys of Cancer, and they will
    be the leaders in their homes. Because a Cancer child develops a
    deep love for her family, she will always be willing to assist
    them. All the love she receives from her parents will work as an
    investment, as she will give it back to them in larger amounts.

    Pisces Rising Sign:

    Edmundson's physical body will be soft and delicate, with a
    regular height, round facial features and very special eyes.
    Usually, the color of the eyes will be green or grey or an
    undefined color, and will change as she grows; as an adult, she
    will have eyes that change with the weather and the intensity of
    the light. She will have a great imagination and sensitivity.
    Edmundson will be very affectionate and will be always looking
    for demonstrations of love from her parents. She will marvel at
    fairy tales and big doses of fantasy, and will prefer to live in
    her own world instead of living in the adult world. This will be
    true as long as she lives; in the future she will be an eternal
    romantic and idealist. If Edmundson's Sun (as shown above) is
    located in a rational or scientific sign, this Ascendant
    placement will alter her mental inclination a bit and she will
    be more intuitive. Her sensitivity is intense, and her feelings
    can be easily hurt. Tears will be seen very often on her face,
    even as an adult. She will be very comfortable communing with
    nature, walking in the woods, playing on the beach, and caring
    for a pet at home. Edmundson will feel compassion for any
    suffering person and her charitable soul will be always ready to
    serve and help. Her idealistic attitude can cause disappointment
    when facing reality; it is important to teach her to direct her
    imagination into artistic activity and to analyze reality
    objectively. If Edmundson feels hurt or is afraid of something,
    she will be evasive and may stay in her room and/or sleep too
    much.

    Her childhood is ruled by Neptune and Jupiter. These two
    planets tend to create a special climate and an atmosphere of
    overprotection. One or both of her parents have suffered through
    crisis situations and do not want their child to experience what
    they did, so that is why they overprotect her, and give her all
    she needs. The result of this is that Edmundson, as an adult,
    will not have the strength to deal with everyday conflicts; she
    will be exhausted by problems, because the real world will turn
    out to be different than the one she was shown. Emotionally, she
    is remarkably sweet. Her heart is prepared to give love
    endlessly, and she will sacrifice everything for those she
    loves. Another of Edmundson's characteristic is her intuition;
    she will often feel events before they happen. There are
    frequent paranormal experiences. She could dream of her uncle,
    who has been absent for a long time, who nobody has heard from,
    coming home, and suddenly, there he is. Her sensitivity makes
    her be very impressionable to aggression and cruelty. It is best
    not to let her watch TV (at least not too much), because this
    could inhibit her own imagintation, and could impress her with
    scenes of violence. It is important to nurture her dreams and
    aspirations, without regard to how far from reality they seem to
    be or how impossible they look. If Edmundson grows up receiving
    the support and love she needs, she will turn dreams into
    reality on her own.

    *** Chapter 2 ***
    Maternal figure: emotions, feelings, capacity to love
    and share.

    Moon in Scorpio:

    Edmundson will have very deep and intense emotions. She
    will either love or hate something or someone, with nothing in
    between. She will have strong possessive feelings which will
    magnify her selfish attitude and could create problems with
    jealousy in her relationships. Edmundson will be a difficult
    girl to control, because her vast inner world will often make
    her express herself aggressively. She will be attracted to
    secrets and mysteries; as an adult, this can make her a
    successful researcher in any field or an avid student of the
    occult. Edmundson's intuition will be powerful and she will
    clearly feel the weaknesses of her parents, especially if one of
    them lies in an attempt to convince her about anything.

    The relationship with her mother may contain some tension
    along with intense love. In spite of any disagreements, they
    will need each other in order to become stronger. Her mother
    must be careful not to model negative feelings like rancor or
    revenge; on the contrary, she must show her how to be flexible,
    how to accept others the way they are, and how to share.

    Moon in 9th house:

    Edmundson will always be very restless and ready to start
    new adventures. She will love to travel, especially to exotic
    and faraway places. Her philosophical mind will always be
    looking for explanations and new ideas. She may also show great
    interest in religious matters and her devotion will be strong.
    Edmundson will be very idealistic and will dream of a better
    world. She can be a very good teacher in any field.

    Venus in Leo:

    Edmundson will be ardent and romantic. Her manner of
    expression will be exaggerated and a bit theatrical. Edmundson
    will love life itself, and people too, though she will be very
    selective and will always prefer outstanding people. She will
    have a very deep self love and may be vain. Edmundson will
    prefer everything to be refined and in good taste. Her clothes
    and physical appearance will be very important to her. She will
    love a great social life: going to parties, meetings and other
    events which give her a chance to show off. As an adult
    Edmundson will have many romances, but once she is in love she
    will be loyal to her feelings.

    Venus in 6th house:

    Edmundson will like being useful to people. Schoolmates
    will love her, and in adulthood people at work will appreciate
    her very much. Edmundson will prefer neat and clean activities,
    which do not require her to dirty her hands, and activities in
    which she could show her refinement and delicacy. Edmundson
    could become a peacemaker, adviser, umpire, or nurse. She will
    be concerned about her own health and will have to learn to
    avoid sugar and starch.
    Jupiter in Sagittarius:

    Edmundson will develop moral and ethical principles from
    the beginning. She will have a great sense of justice and will
    respect all religious ideals. She will be tolerant of others and
    will respect other opinions and points of view. Edmundson will
    be an idealist and will love her freedom. She will travel
    frequently, visit many countries, and learn about different
    cultures. If Edmundson lives in a country other than where she
    was born, it would contribute to her evolution and maturity and
    she would be very happy.

    Jupiter in 9th house:

    Edmundson will be interested in philosophical and religious
    subjects. She will love learning about different countries,
    cultures, languages and will definitely travel a lot. Edmundson
    will find happiness and fulfillment in a country other than
    where she was born; if Edmundson does not actually live in
    another country, she will travel extensively and will enjoy each
    trip immensely. Getting a college education will be very
    important in her destiny, and she may get a doctorate degree or
    other outstanding diploma or certification in her profession.

    Jupiter Conjunction Uranus:

    Edmundson will be very restless and will not like any kind
    of restriction. She will show a deep respect for knowledge;
    Edmundson will show interest in learning everything and in
    developing a great creative capacity. She will be attracted to
    new and progressive things. Edmundson will be generous and will
    always be encouraging to her friends. It is also possible that
    she will travel frequently.

    *****************************************************************

    This report I got for free on www.thefutureminders.com
    Most of it is right on. I sent it to my mom. But she probably deleted it when she saw that it had to do with the stars. It's a cool site. It's even got a "spy" section where you can figure out why your friends are being assholes.

    Current Mood: depressed
    Thursday, September 15th, 2005
    11:24 am
    Thrift Store Dream

    My dream last night....

    I was in a really cool thrift store. Everything was so inexpensive. All nice things. The store had mostly 'prom' style dresses in it.  The kinds with the really poofy bottoms that are fun to twirl around in.  All types of colors.  There were nice bras and panties in there too. I wanted to get some so bad but I don't get bras or panties at thrift stores. I was debating my morals and decided to take a closer look at a particular bra and pair of thongs. Right then, a man put his arm out in front of the rack so I couldn't grab them. I spent a lot of time in the dressing room in the dream. Also, Brandon that lived across the street when I lived in Ohio was there.

    I got the below dream symbols from www.dreammoods.com 

    Closet

    To see a closet in your dream, symbolizes something in your life that you have kept hidden. It may also signify an unveiling of previously hidden aspects of yourself, as in "coming out of the closet".

    Cloth

    To see cloth in your dream, represents components and various pieces that composes your life. Consider the color for significance in the outlook or how things are going in your life.

    Clothesline

    To dream that you are hanging out clothing on a clothesline, suggests that you are revealing hidden aspects of yourself, especially if they are underwear. The dream may also signify your hang-ups. In particular, if your are hanging white clothes in the backyard, then it indicates your desire for pureness and to be cleansed. You may also be proclaiming your innocence in some situation.

    Clothing

    To dream of your clothes, is symbolic of your public self and how you are perceived. It is indicative of the act you put on in front of others. Clothes is also an indication of your condition and status in life.  

    To dream that your clothes are soiled and you are trying to clean them, signifies your attempts to change something about your character. You may need to change your old habits and old ways of thinking.

    To dream that you are wearing brand new clothes, signifies new attitudes and a new persona.  You are finding a different way of expressing yourself.  If the price tags are still attached to the clothes, then it suggests that you are trying too hard to adapt to this new attitude. Perhaps it is not who you really are and you are not quite fitting in.

    To dream that you are constantly changing your clothes, represents the need for change and your need to fit into a new situation or role. You need to establish a new self-image.

    To dream that your clothes fit too tightly, denotes that you feel restricted in some way. You may feel constrained in a relationship or held back at work.

    To dream that your clothing is torn or ripped, indicates that there is some flaws in your thinking or thought process.  Your logic is not making sense. You need to alter your reasoning and make a stronger argument. 

    To dream that you are shopping for or buying clothes, represents your anxieties about trying to fit in or being "well-suited" for your changing role. 

    To dream that all your clothes in the closet are white, suggests that you need to lighten up. You may have recently been feeling a little on the depressed side. Perhaps you were going through some crisis. It is time  to move on. You need to change your attitude and get a  grip of your inner emotions. 

    Arm

    To see your arms as the emphasis in your dream, indicates your nurturance side and your ability to reach out and care for people. Alternatively, it may represent the struggles and challenges in your life. Consider the pun "arm yourself" which implies that you need to protect yourself, be more aggressive and take a firmer stance on things.

    Underwear

    To dream that you are in your underwear, signifies a situation that has created a loss of respect for you. Alternatively, it symbolizes some aspect of yourself that is private. If you feel ashamed of being seen in your underwear, then it indicates your hesitance in revealing your true feelings, attitudes, and other hidden habits/ideas.

    To dream that someone is in their underwear, signifies an embarrassing and inexplicable situation. Alternatively, you may see that person for who he/she really is.

    To see dirty or torn underwear, suggests that you are not comfortable in your own skin and have feelings of inadequacy. You may possess negative and critical feelings about yourself. You may also feel uncomfortable about your sexuality.

    Panties

    To see or wear panties in your dream, represents your feminine attitudes and feelings. It reflects a female point of view. 

    To dream that you are taking off your panties, signifies your ideas of sexuality. It may also indicate your need to get to the bottom of things. You may want to find a way out of a situation.

    Bra

    To dream that you are wearing a bra, signifies support and protection. Perhaps you need to have your spirits uplifted. Alternatively, it may represent your nurturing side and maternal feelings.

    To dream that you are not wearing a bra, indicates that you have no discipline or control. Alternative, it may reflect your sexual nature.

    Dress

    To see or wear a dress in your dream, represents a feminine outlook or feminine perspective on a situation. You are freely expressing your femininity.

    To dream that you are wearing a white dress, suggests that you want to appear pure and angelic toward others.

    Dressing

    To dream that you are having trouble getting dressed, signifies that some evil person will preoccupy your mind to the point where you are not able to enjoy your daily life and its pleasure.

    To dream that you are dressed in white, foretells that you will have longevity and good health throughout your life.



    Current Mood: cold
    9:46 am
    Cute Boy
    Here is the link (pictures of him) to that cute boy I went on the date with.

    http://michael.solidearth.com/mypics/

    Current Mood: crazy
    Monday, September 12th, 2005
    1:36 pm

    This is mine!!!  A lot of it makes sense. I underlined things I could identify with. www.123numerology.com

     

    Deanna, your Life Path of 3 ...

    You are creative, expressive and blessed with some type of talent that is guaranteed to put you in the spotlight at least once in your life. You have an upbeat personality and others find you easy to identify with. You also have the potential to become the symbol for an entire culture or generation. Many beloved entertainers, columnists, movie stars and inspirational leaders in the world are number 3's.

    Your creative and performing talents are also augmented by your astounding ability to understand and empathize with others. You are the number that knows how to "give the people what they want." For this reason many of you also end up in sales or advertising as your innate charm enables you to "sell ice to an Eskimo."

    You often rise to the top of any career that you choose but the old cliche "it's lonely at the top" also applies to you. This is because threes are often fated to be loved by many but not by one special other. However most as most 3's are naturally philanthropic and giving of their hearts, many are quite satisfied with the mass attention and social popularity that is often part of their life path.

    In fact, the highest attainment of your life path is the polishing and perfecting of your talent and sharing it with the world. Unfortunately as you do so you may find yourself leaving a lot of broken hearts along the way. A challenge for many 3's is also not to become too jaded about love.

    As you are very independent and light on your feet you may have a problem finding a life partner that understands your ambitions or that is willing to share you with so many other people. Even if you don't achieve fame, 3's tend to be at the very center of their community and enjoy a thriving social and love life.
    In fact having too many romances during one lifetime is very characteristic of a 3.

    As you always put talent or career first you might also find yourself to be the odd person out in a number of love triangles during your life. Usually this is because a career calling forces a 3 to abandon a partner who cannot keep up with them. Sometimes their fast-paced lifestyle does not offer them the time to cultivate a relationship. For this reason you also might find your relationships to be more unorthodox than others might; finding soul mates who are already attached or that are much older or much younger than you.

    As you have a very spiritually sophisticated view of life you embrace change without the fear that is experienced by most of the other numbers. Often this causes you hardships financially, as you are the number that is most willing to gamble or take a big risk to launch a new project.

    You are capable of making large amounts of money, but also capable of spending it all just as fast. As you are not very materially minded you are not necessarily concerned about this but your carefree attitude about money often alarms your family and business associates.

    Your tendency to live for today and not for tomorrow is a blessing as well as curse for you as you journey along your life path. The drawback of this is that you are easily distracted from your responsibilities.

    The rare number three that is not successful in life has probably lost his or her focus. The positive aspect of this tendency to live in the here and now is that you rapidly bounce back from any type of misfortune and like a chameleon have an uncanny ability to reinvent yourself throughout your life time.

    Deanna, your Expression of 7 ...
    Your Potential Natural Talents and Abilities

    You are a secret rebel and a loner preferring the company of your brilliant thoughts and fantastic daydreams to the company of other people. You are incredibly spiritually sophisticated and this creates an odd air of detachment to your personality.

    You tend to express yourself in a very blunt manner to others simply because you are not a big believer in wasting time with niceties. You tend to not express yourself well through your facial expressions or body language
    although you can be quite eloquent with words.
    You do not say much but when you do say something it is usually acutely observant or very enlightening.

    To you the ultimate expression of your higher self lies within the mysteries of science, nature and the occult. Most number 7s tend to be interested in all three topics
    . Many are mathematicians, naturalists, anthropologists, historians or priests.

    The virtues of solitude appeal to you most as it allows you the peace and acres of time that you need to investigate your favorite subjects. Even if you have never gone to school you probably have the equivalent of a Ph.D in some kind of esoteric or scientific subject. An important part of your self-expression is the ability to be able to pass this knowledge onto a willing enthusiast or student one day.

    You are also likely to choose a romantic partner that shares your intellectual passions. As you are so quirky it takes a very special person indeed to understand your complex body language and need for a lot of personal space. Usually when you do find a partner that understands you, you are so grateful, that you become loyal for life.

    Although you make a great teacher, you do not necessarily make a good parent. This is because
    a child's curiosity often competes with your own child like need to be inquisitive and live in a fantasy world.

    You are very logical and in terms of your personal tastes, believe that beauty is a matter of form following function. You are also a perfectionist so much of what you own will probably be the very best or state of the art. You should be well able to afford this as your deeply analytical and logical mind also often lends you a talent for investing money. Although you like owning the best on the market you are not the type to show off.
    You tend to hide your wealth from others as well as you hide your other secrets. This is partly an attempt on your part to see if an individual likes you for you.

    You are very uncomfortable with expressions of emotion and often avoid "feeling your feelings." Many of you may equate relationships with the idea of pain or as an element that could potentially throw you off your balance or defocus you from your "real work." Sometimes your emotions are manifested through illness as you have a tendency to stash all of your feelings, especially the painful ones such as resentment, to the back of your subconcious where they fester for years.

    You are also prone to obsession if you let your feelings somehow become the focus of your life. The challenge of some number fives is to distinguish the difference between how they feel about a situation and the reality of it.

    Your reverence for the mysteries of the universe makes you an adamant seeker of truth. Your search for an ideal society or a spiritual epiphany makes you more vulnerable than other numbers to the influences of cults or religious leaders.

    Deanna, your Soul Urge of 9 ...

    What You Desire To Be, To Have, and To Do In Your Life

    The highest expression of your soul's urge is to connect in a mystical way with others. Although your aspirations are lofty, you are also a humanitarian who is often gifted with a sharp intuition and keen analytical skills. Often you give up opportunities that should be yours, simply to help another. This is because your faith in yourself, god and the future is so strong that you live by your conviction that the universe is always unfolding as it should.

    Others simply do not possess your spiritual sophistication and may be amused or repelled by what they see as your irrational talk or beliefs. You may be accused of being stupid or foolish simply because you won't take the bait (of a job or money) at the expense of your ethics. Compared to the other numbers you excel at letting go of lovers or opportunities simply because you know you can't take emotions and material goods with you when you die.

    As you are driven more by compassion than common sense, you are the first to fall on your sword for a worthy cause. You may often be broke because you see money only as a tool of change. You would much rather spend money on art, charity or a trip. In fact, ostentatious displays of wealth anger and disgust you because your ideal is a world where all humans are equal.

    You might appear very eccentric to others who don't quite understand your fascination with the spiritual world or your insistence on being a seeker of truth. Furthermore nines tend to get carried away when it comes to trying to heal or connect to others
    . The biggest mistake you could make is to try and be an "agent of karma" by meddling or interfering in other people's affairs.

    As you are so talented psychically, you often become a liability in business simply because people in authority resent your ability to perceive their secrets. You rarely rise very high on the corporate ladder simply because others see you as a threat to their cloak of political intrigue.

    You have a soul that must be continually assured and fed with new sources of spiritual information. To stay healthy, your psyche may require that you make special trips to holy or mystical places. You may have to seek out special teaching to help you understand and cultivate your talents so that you are in control, as opposed to terrorized by them. Being able to foresee the future or see through other people is often painful, so some therapy might be required in your life to help you detach from your own sensitivity.

    One of the sins you are most vulnerable to is spiritual pride. This can bring you situations that cause your faith to be seriously tested or where your pride can take a big fall. Many nines often find themselves subject to a lesson in becoming humble by the cosmos simply because they were too boastful of their talents. Making money off of your psychic talents may also cause you some problems, as part of your path is to heal without the expectation of reward. If you are working professionally as a psychic and are a nine, then remember to tithe at least one tenth of your earnings towards a worthy cause. However the highest calling of your soul urge is to share your intuitive talents for free.

    1:17 pm
    Rubbercactus and Numerology

    Holly,

    I did your numerology thing and even highlighted things I thought suited you

     

    www.123numerology.com

    Holly, Did You Know There Are
    Hidden Things Going On In Your Life
    Directly Related To Your Name
    And Your Date Of Birth?

    Let me prove it to you ...

    Let's just start with one of the most basic calculations ... your "life path" -- based on your birth date of December 16, 1980 -- is 1.

    How Is Your Life Path Calculated ?

    This is calculated in four steps:

    1) Add up the digits in your month of birth (if more than one digit)
    2) Add up the digits in your day of birth (if more than one digit)
    3) Add up the digits in your year of birth.
    4) Add up the answers from (1), (2), and (3) above.

    With all the above calculations, we keep adding until we end up with a single digit, or an 11 or 22 (which are special cases in numerology, known as "Master Numbers").

    In your case Holly, you were born on December 16, 1980.

    Your month of birth is December, which is the 12th month. Adding 1 + 2 gives us 3.

    Your day of birth is the 16th. Adding 1 + 6 gives us 7.

    Your year of birth is 1980. Adding 1 + 9 + 8 + 0 gives us 18. Adding 1 + 8 gives us 9.

    The totals, then, are 3, 7, and 9. To get our final answer, we add these three numbers together: Adding 3 + 7 + 9 gives us 19. Adding 1 + 9 gives us 10. Adding 1 + 0 gives us 1.
     

    Be sure to read every word of this, because tour life path reveals so much about you ...

    Holly, your Life Path of 1 ...


    Your life path number is number 1, and so you are probably also blessed with a great drive and burning desire to be "number one" at whatever you do. Unfortunately, your competitive spirit sometimes gets you into trouble with friends and family, as work and ambition take precedence over emotional relationships.

    You have a great faith in yourself that often achieves result despite great odds … yet at the same time, has you often accused of having an enormous ego. However, in your defense, it is that enormous ego that gives you the daring and courage to change everybody's life for the better.

    You have probably been born into one of two life paths. Either you have been born into wealth and privilege and coddled by lucky circumstances into becoming "great" in some way or you are thriving despite great challenges such as poverty and war. The number 1 is the number of the hero and this is why you find many disabled as well as super achievers (such as military leaders and business magnates) born under this life path number.

    You are also usually blessed with good health, vitality and endless inspiration. Your number is very connected with the divine and you often feel especially connected to God or your subconscious mind. However, as you are such an individualist, this insistence on listening to your hunches often make you appear irrational or even insane to others, that is, until the direction of your gut instincts pays off and all benefit.

    Although you are capable of rising to great heights when it comes to career or athletics, you are also capable of great falls. However, as you are also an innovative and resourceful individual you have the uncanny ability to "make lemons out of lemonade" and start again from scratch.

    Despite your main personally blessing, you might also feel as if you face more challenges or obstacles in life than others do. Karmically, many number 1's spend their early years learning not to be dependant on others as fate throws difficult relationships and situations their way. If you feel cursed or that you have a bad luck, that is very characteristic of number ones whose life lessons are usually about "letting go", "releasing control" and "overcoming great odds."

    As a number 1 you may also need to watch a tendency towards arrogance or over confidence. Many number ones stumble early in life because they have a habit of biting off more than they can chew. Often you are perceived as odd, controlling or self-centered by others. However often these are traits are forgiven as others also recognize that your talents outshine those of the ordinary mortal.

    Of all the numbers, you are the one that values individuality, privacy and ethics more than anything. This is why so many of you become business, political and spiritual leaders. You tend to have faith in yourself, more than you do others, and make a better leader than a team player. You are best suited to occupations that allow you to work on your own or be the big boss.

    Being a number 1, you are also likely to achieve some measure of fame in your life. This is because you are destined to be "the one that is loved by all" as opposed to "the one that is loved by one other." It sometimes takes number ones a lifetime to realize that being adored by many is not such a bad thing.
     

     

    Holly, How Your Birth Name Influences
    Your Potential Natural Abilities,
    and What You Really Want Out of Life ...

    These are calculated using the letters in your full name at birth
    (i.e. "Holly Michelle Edmundson", as printed on your birth certificate).

    Your Expression - which describes your potential natural talents and abilities - works out to be a 5.  

    How Is Your Expression Calculated?

    What we are going to do now is turn all the letters in your name at birth into numbers,
    using the following chart :

    1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9
    A B C D E F G H I
    J K L M N O P Q R
    S T U V W X Y Z 
     

    In practice I put the vowels above the name and the consonants underneath. This is because your Soul Urge is derived from the vowels alone, so it makes it easier at the next step to do it this way.

    Again there is one exception to the rule and this is with the letter ‘Y’. If it acts as a consonant and is pronounced it is classed as being a consonant. If it is not pronounced or acts as a vowel it is classed as being a vowel. The ‘Y’ in Yolande, for instance, would be classed as being a consonant, but the ‘Y’ in Larry would be classed as being a vowel as it acts as a vowel.

    Let’s work out your Expression number, Holly :

    Using the above chart we would put a 8 below the 'H' of your first name. We would follow this with a 6 placed above the 'o', then a 3 below the 'l', a 3 below the 'l', and so on ...

    We then carry on in the same manner with the rest of your name. When you are finished, you should end up with a chart like this:

     6   7   9   5   5  5   3    6 
    H o l l y  M i c h e l l e  E d m u n d s o n
    8  3 3   4  3 8  3 3    4 4  5 4 1  5
     

    Now we simply add up the numbers in each row.

    The top row: Adding 6 + 7 + 9 + 5 + 5 + 5 + 3 + 6 gives us 46. Adding 4 + 6 gives us 10. Adding 1 + 0 gives us 1.

    The bottom row: Adding 8 + 3 + 3 + 4 + 3 + 8 + 3 + 3 + 4 + 4 + 5 + 4 + 1 + 5 gives us 58. Adding 5 + 8 gives us 13. Adding 1 + 3 gives us 4. .

    We now add the total of the top and bottom rows, which gives us 1+4=5.

    And so, Holly, your Expression is 5.
     


    What a '5' Expression Means About You

    Now that we've done the calculations, what does this actually mean?

    Holly, your Expression of 5 ...
    Your Potential Natural Talents and Abilities


    You are optimistic, inquisitive and embrace change. You are a freedom-loving individual who expresses their love of independence often through a bohemian or unusual life style. You are blessed with a brilliant creative mind that is never at a loss for a solution to a problem.

    As your independence is so important to you, you thrive best in creative occupations that allow you a great deal of travel. You have an eye for design and appreciate the good things in life. In fact, you may spend a lot of your time trying to figure out how to get these things without having to work too hard.

    If you are a typical five then you will meet with the most success by selling some aspect of yourself or your talent. The height of your personal expression is in your talent for persuasion. This is why you are best suited for jobs in media, marketing and design.

    You very much believe that a person is defined by what he does and not what he wants to do so any business or project that you start will be very much branded with your personal flair. It is a number 5 that tends to name a business after himself or send out a resume with a photo.

    When it comes to business you also tend to have a "hands on" approach as you rely a lot on your wit, charm and good looks to get what you want. Once the deal is sealed, however, you sometimes have difficulty seeing it through to completion. This is because your brilliant mind is captured by so many other interests that it is difficult for you to focus sometimes.

    Sometimes your need to express your independence brings you to a critical point in both your professional and personal relationships. You are terrified of being stuck in one place or having your free spirit suffocated by labels and possessiveness. For this reason many of you feel quite suffocated in relationships or are unable to hold down a day job for any length of time.

    You are very popular socially because you are the life of every party. You have light nimble mind and have excellent verbal skills. You also have enormous powers of analysis that gives you an edge when it comes to investing money, judging others and avoiding harmful situations.

    You are also very accepting of new people and new ideas. The last thing that could ever be said of you is that you are closed minded. You will try anything once and you often respond willingly to a dare. However, sometimes your permissiveness leads to relationships with odd or unstable individuals.

    Romantically others may find you hard to get close to as you would rather sit and chat than get intimate. Others fail to understand that the most valued expression of your love is the expression of your hopes and dreams to another.

    You are also very pragmatic when it comes to all of your relationships and believe in treating everyone equally. Deep down you are very philosophical about relationships and believe that no person should be so important that he or she should have the power to make you happy or sad. This can often distress your soul mate who doesn't feel that special in your presence. Part of your challenge might be showing through your actions, how loving all without sacrificing one can be achieved.

     

     
    Now, Let's Examine Your Soul Urge
    (also known as your "Heart's Desire")

    We have already done all the mathematics necessary to work out this number. It is simply the total of the top row (the vowels) of your full birth name.

    In your case Holly, this totals 1.


    Holly, your Soul Urge of 1 ...

    What You Desire To Be, To Have, and To Do In Your Life


    Your soul urge is to be the best at everything that you do. You play to win and when you don't win you suffer a serious crisis of faith. As you believe you are directly connected to a higher power you just can't bear it when you let yourself and others down. It makes you think that there is no God.

    One of your greatest challenges is to put your life in perspective. Most ones are born into lives that encourage their personal development and in particular the expression of their free will. However it is often this sense of entitlement, that the world must always be your oyster that leads to your downfall.

    You may see your pride as being evidence of your high self-esteem and confidence. However sometimes your ambition and drive is so extreme that it disgusts and angers others who may perceive you as selfish and controlling. In ancient cultures flaunting your talents and wealth was thought to attract "the evil eye." In your case the evil eye is often others desire to see your pride crushed or watch you take a big fall off your pedestal.

    You on the other hand don't understand why others can't see that you are special. Many number ones suffer from a bad case of terminal uniqueness. You love things that are one of a kind and will resort to extreme or even outrageous behavior to prove that you are irreplaceable.

    In your universe you are the sun and everything and everybody else rotates around you. Many number ones sabotage their careers in the early stages, as they cannot get past the idea that someone else might know more or be better than them. Ones that feel dominated may resort to overtly rebelling against authority and cause chaos.

    Your eagerness to be recognized for your talents sometimes turns you into a braggart. This often incurs the wrath of others, as it seems that you really are concerned with taking care of number one and nobody else. One of your soul lessons might be to recognize that "to rule is truly to serve."

    If your talents are not appreciated or recognized by others you may steal the spotlight by creating unnecessary dramas in your life. This is because in your mind even negative attention than no attention at all.

    If you feel you are a failure you also risk the temptation of escaping into addiction or fantasy. You may get involved in troubling situations with emotionally disturbed people so that you can feel like the hero by rescuing them.

    The conflict that you face is the age-old battle between your will and what fate has to offer. When bad things happen to number ones they tend to give up entirely. This is part of a damaging all or nothing mentality. This type of attitude often puts you in situations that are humiliating as you often persist out of pure stubbornness even though all signs point to eventual failure.

    To be successful you need to temper your soul urges with patience and tact. You need to learn to see other people's point of view and let others win an argument once in a while. You are in such a hurry to succeed that you often make hasty decisions that you regret later. Acting on impulse is definitely a hazard for you on your life path. Rather than listen to your ego, listen to you higher self as well.
     

    9:29 am
    Late to work today. Me and Leigh were argueing. Leigh Ann told me she did meth last weekend.

    That's really annoying. It's like she's forcing me to stick around and help her.

    That puts a damper on my social life, now I'm going to have to figure out how to get her into some sort of counseling.
    Sunday, September 11th, 2005
    10:11 pm
    Holly, I sent this to mom. Think it will get her going? Hehehee, I'm so bad...



    To All My Fellow Americans Who Voted for George W. Bush:

    On this, the fourth anniversary of 9/11, I'm just curious, how does it feel?

    How does it feel to know that the man you elected to lead us after we were attacked went ahead and put a guy in charge of FEMA whose main qualification was that he ran horse shows?

    That's right. Horse shows.

    I really want to know -- and I ask you this in all sincerity and with all due respect -- how do you feel about the utter contempt Mr. Bush has shown for your safety? C'mon, give me just a moment of honesty. Don't start ranting on about how this disaster in New Orleans was the fault of one of the poorest cities in America. Put aside your hatred of Democrats and liberals and anyone with the last name of Clinton. Just look me in the eye and tell me our President did the right thing after 9/11 by naming a horse show runner as the top man to protect us in case of an emergency or catastrophe.

    I want you to put aside your self-affixed label of Republican/conservative/born-again/capitalist/ditto-head/right-winger and just talk to me as an American, on the common ground we both call America.

    Are we safer now than before 9/11? When you learn that behind the horse show runner, the #2 and #3 men in charge of emergency preparedness have zero experience in emergency preparedness, do you think we are safer?

    When you look at Michael Chertoff, the head of Homeland Security, a man with little experience in national security, do you feel secure?

    When men who never served in the military and have never seen young men die in battle send our young people off to war, do you think they know how to conduct a war? Do they know what it means to have your legs blown off for a threat that was never there?

    Do you really believe that turning over important government services to private corporations has resulted in better services for the people?

    Why do you hate our federal government so much? You have voted for politicians for the past 25 years whose main goal has been to de-fund the federal government. Do you think that cutting federal programs like FEMA and the Army Corps of Engineers has been good or bad for America? GOOD OR BAD?

    With the nation's debt at an all-time high, do you think tax cuts for the rich are still a good idea? Will you give yours back so hundreds of thousands of homeless in New Orleans can have a home?

    Do you believe in Jesus? Really? Didn't he say that we would be judged by how we treat the least among us? Hurricane Katrina came in and blew off the facade that we were a nation with liberty and justice for all. The wind howled and the water rose and what was revealed was that the poor in America shall be left to suffer and die while the President of the United States fiddles and tells them to eat cake.

    That's not a joke. The day the hurricane hit and the levees broke, Mr. Bush, John McCain and their rich pals were stuffing themselves with cake. A full day after the levees broke (the same levees whose repair funding he had cut), Mr. Bush was playing a guitar some country singer gave him. All this while New Orleans sank under water.

    It would take ANOTHER day before the President would do a flyover in his jumbo jet, peeking out the widow at the misery 2500 feet below him as he flew back to his second home in DC. It would then be TWO MORE DAYS before a trickle of federal aid and troops would arrive. This was no seven minutes in a sitting trance while children read "My Pet Goat" to him. This was FOUR DAYS of doing nothing other than saying "Brownie (FEMA director Michael Brown), you're doing a heck of a job!"

    My Republican friends, does it bother you that we are the laughing stock of the world?

    And on this sacred day of remembrance, do you think we honor or shame those who died on 9/11/01? If we learned nothing and find ourselves today every bit as vulnerable and unprepared as we were on that bright sunny morning, then did the 3,000 die in vain?

    Our vulnerability is not just about dealing with terrorists or natural disasters. We are vulnerable and unsafe because we allow one in eight Americans to live in horrible poverty. We accept an education system where one in six children never graduate and most of those who do can't string a coherent sentence together. The middle class can't pay the mortgage or the hospital bills and 45 million have no health coverage whatsoever.

    Are we safe? Do you really feel safe? You can only move so far out and build so many gated communities before the fruit of what you've sown will be crashing through your walls and demanding retribution. Do you really want to wait until that happens? Or is it your hope that if they are left alone long enough to soil themselves and shoot themselves and drown in the filth that fills the street that maybe the problem will somehow go away?

    I know you know better. You gave the country and the world a man who wasn't up for the job and all he does is hire people who aren't up for the job. You did this to us, to the world, to the people of New Orleans. Please fix it. Bush is yours. And you know, for our peace and safety and security, this has to be fixed. What do you propose?

    I have an idea, and it isn't a horse show.

    Yours,
    Michael Moore
    http://www.michaelmoore.com/

    Current Mood: naughty
    Thursday, September 8th, 2005
    9:35 pm
    My dreams
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